Tuesday, August 20, 2019

July Recap

Happy Tuesday. Hope you are still enjoying summer where you are. It continues to be hot here with very little rain. The sunflowers have gone crazy though. We only planted them once but each year now they continue to come back and multiply. We have so many this year we call it sunflower forest. We love it though and the birds do to.
Today is also the 12th anniversary of when I started this blog. A lot has happened during that time both good and bad. I don't get to post as much as I planned to when I first started but am happy that I have still been able to keep it going this long even if nobody reads it. I especially like looking back at everything that has happened and hopefully have helped others in some way by sharing my life here too. Today is also my sisters birthday as well.

Hello July
I made this piece on my Ipad Pro using Procreate. Inspiration from Pinterest.

July started out with the journey to find a new dog. Even though it had not been long since Lily's passing I knew there was another dog out there that needed me and I needed it. The journey to find and get that dog was not easy. I was looking everyday without much luck. We met 3 different dogs but all of them had some sort of issue that prevented us from getting them. I was getting very discouraged but finally found her at The Denver Animal Shelter thanks to Tracey Schneider Pliskin  She is the one who helped us find Indie too. Unfortunately the universe was making it hard for me again though. I was all ready to adopt her and bring her home when I found out that Rich had to be there to meet her first. I put a hold on her but they said he only had until 5:30 to get there He was in meetings all afternoon though and was running late so I called to tell them he was on his way and might be a little late. I talked to someone named Bridget who said he could have until 6 to get there. I thought everything was going to be fine but he walked in at 5:33 and they told him he was too late and would not let him see her. They said they had no records saying that the person I spoke to on the phone said he could be late but the person I spoke to on the phone says they did. They even have a name and reference number. I just didn't understand it and was in tears It just was not right. They said I had until 12:30 the next day for him to see her so we just had to wait until then. Thankfully he was able to make it over there in between meetings and see her. He was in the room for less then 5 mins and she was fine with him. They didn't even watch. It was ridiculous but we gave them what they wanted and I was able to adopt her.  I just don't understand why things always have to be so hard but thankfully it worked out in the end. She was the happiness I was looking for and I think Lily sent her to me. I know there will never be another Lily but they do have a lot of similarities. We were also told that she was in the shelter twice prior to this which is very hard to believe. They said she was brought in as a stray the first time and the second time it was because of too much barking. When we got her out of there she didn't bark once. We even took her to Pets mart after we got there and she was quiet the whole time, I think she was just waiting for us. She does bark a bit to much sometimes but nothing we can't handle. Indie loves her too and they get along great. Emilia took this photo of her at the shelter the day we met her. You see how happy she was. When I picked her up she just snuggled her head on my shoulder and I knew she was the one. 
Meet Zoey. We had a hard time coming up with her name but finally decided on Zoey because it means life and she is definitely full of that. I took the video below after we got her home. You can see she fit right in.

Before we left I got a call from the vets office that took care of Lily telling me her remains were ready to be picked up so we went and got them on the way home. It was a really odd feeling to be adopting a new dog and picking those up but I also found some comfort in having her remains back at the same time. I also received this of her paw which I had made at the same time which I love and will cherish forever.
A few days after we got her I made this piece in honor of all dogs. This quote is something Cesar Milan says all the time and I agree,  Dog is Love! I followed a tutorial from Holly Pixels for the Love and flourishes. You can see  here on You tube
 Things in our Etsy shop were okay. We got a custom order from a return buyer for her twins second birthday. The theme was Elmo. We normally don't do copyright characters but did it for this buyer. We love how everything came out. Hope she did too.

I also made this piece for the July Floral's and Praise For His Glory Challenge on Instagram. I was only able to complete one week because of everything going on. I am really happy with how it turned out though. I got the inspiration for the wreath from Crystal Whittens Book.
Emilia and I visited a new farmers market and made this dish with fresh broccoli that we bought there and substituted  gluten free pasta. My favorite brand it Tinkyada  It was really good.

Unfortunately my happiness didn't last long. On July 28th my life would change and not for the better. My father fell on my parents driveway and my mother also fell trying to help him. My father had fallen many times before but this time it really took it out of him. My mother also got a concussion in the process and was already dealing with memory issues so this just made that worse. They were not able to go to their usual hospital because of the head injury and that is where the nightmare began. I thought things were bad when my mother had sepsis and Lily had cancer but this does not even compare. I will share more about it next month. Until then I hope the rest of your summer is a good one and I will be back with more to share then.

Tuesday, July 16, 2019

June Recap

Happy Tuesday. Hope you are enjoying summer where you are. It finally feels like summer here after a month of cool temperatures and lots of rain it is almost too hot now though  All the moisture was good for the flowers but Indie does not like the thunder and lighting that goes with it though. It is so hard to watch her go through that. We went to visit my mom one day and Emilia took this photo of her. She loved being able to play in all that green grass. Didn't she look happy?
Hello June. Because of all the rain I thought this drawing would be a good way to welcome it in.

Things with Lily continued to get worse after my last post. The biggest problem was her nose. It was constantly running and the greenish mucous was back. Mornings were the worst because I could not keep up with it during the night. It would be all over her face and paws dried on and took time to get off.  She could not make it through the night without snoring loudly. I can only image how hard it must have been for her to sleep at all but she managed some how. It got to a point where I could not sleep with her anymore because I could not sleep through all that noise. Rich ended up sleeping with her downstairs because he could sleep through it but I felt guilty for not letting her sleep with me. We always slept together. We tried 3 different antibiotics but none of them really helped. It never made sense to me why her nose was always running on the left when the tumor was on the right. She also started have these episodes where she would breath really fast like she was running a race while she was sleeping. After doing some research it sounded like congestive heart failure to me so we decided to try a diuretic. Not sure if it helped or not. She also started bleeding from her mouth which was most likely coming from the tumor. I was able to get some Yunian Biao which helped some. I knew things were not good but she still showed signs of wanting to live. We continued to try to live each day to the fullest she would have periods during the day where she would be better but nights were still the worst. I kept trying to think of things to help her but was running out of options and I was still hitting closed doors. I tried to find something called FECO. Full Extract Canabis Oil  which was suppose to be stronger than what I was giving her and was suppose to kill the cancer better but found out that you cannot get it here without a prescription from a doctor.  There are places that sell it out of state online but they are charging way to much for it and I didn't trust what they were selling. When I went to question one of the companies about it they refused to sell to me. Is that crazy or what? It was also getting harder for her to eat. I was feeding her with a baby spoon which seemed to help some. I had taken her down to sleep with Rich on Friday June 21st. I had been leaving the door cracked so she could get out if she wanted but that night he told me to close it so I could get some sleep. I told him to come and get me if things got worse. He didn't though and I found out later that she wanted out be he didn't let her that made me feel terrible. The morning of Saturday June 22nd he brought her up to me said she wanted to be with me. She was covered in snot again so I took her downstairs to clean her up. She started shaking so I knew she was in pain. I tried to give her meds but she refused to take them. I knew then that she was telling me she was done. I called the hospice vet and thankfully it was her day off so she could come right away. It still took her about 45 mins to get here though. During that time I tried to sit with her and love her but she just wanted to pace and didn't really want me to comfort her which made me even sadder.  My niece called and asked if she could be here I told her yes and when she came Lily was happy to see her which made me start to question my decision but I knew I could not change my mind again. Things were not going to get better. When the vet got here she was not happy to see her though and just went and sat under the table.  After accessing her she agreed I was making the right decision. Thankfully it was a very peaceful passing but I still felt as if a part of me died with her. I did feel a sense of relief when it was over though because I knew she would not be suffering anymore and she could not go on like that.  I am just so grateful for the hospice vet from Caring Pathways she was wonderful and made up for all the other horrible vets I had to deal with before that. I just wish I had called them sooner. In the end I know I did everything I could for her though and am happy that I was able to get her almost another year of life.  I was told most dogs with this kind of cancer don't live very long. One of my biggest regrets is that I was not able to get Sophie more time and I let her go to soon. It is just so unfair that both of them had to go out this way. They did nothing to deserve that.  I loved her with all my heart and soul and will never forget her. Hopefully she is in a better place now and will be waiting for me on the other side until we can be together again.
Her favorite place to be was outside in the sun. I took this photo one day when she was doing pretty well. This is how I want to remember her and hope she is enjoying her time in the sun again and    Sophie and all the other dogs before her are with her.
My niece also made me this great video of all the good times I had with her. Things were so bad for so long it was hard to remember those times and this really helps a lot. I still can't watch it without crying though. I also made this piece in her honor too.

Things in our Etsy shop seemed to pick up a little. I didn't  make anything new but I did get this great photo of a buyers daughter wearing my Alice In Wonderland Hat. Isn't she adorable?

I purchased Krystal Whitten's Lettering Prayer Journal a few months ago. I had a really hard time getting started though because I was afraid of making a mistake and not being able to start over again like I can with my Ipad. I finally decided to give it try using pencil and erasable pen. I still made a lot of mistakes and if you saw the page in person you would see them. I also ripped the page accidentally when picking the book up one day too. I kept going though and finally finished it. It still has a lot of flaws but at this point I think done is better than perfect. I also love this verse.  Hopefully the next page will be easier I think I may plan it out digitally first though.

I also made a few more pieces for the florals and praise for his glory challenge on Instagram.

Finally I made this piece on my Ipad to welcome in summer. Tutorial from Katie Jobling on Youtube.
I didn't make anything new to eat in June. With everything going on with Lily I was not very hungry. Hopefully I will have something new to share next time. I hope summer is going well where you are and I will be back next month with more to share then.

Saturday, June 15, 2019

May Recap

Happy Saturday. It finally feels like summer here. It has still been on the cool side but the plus side of that is all the rain has made everything really green and beautiful. We have had a few days in the 80's but it has mostly been in the 70's which has been perfect especially for taking the dogs out.

Hello May. This piece was inspired by Archer and Olive. I did mine digitally though using the gouche brushes from Abby Uproot.

May did not start off well. As I said in my last post Lily took another turn for the worse and I ended up calling in Caring Pathways so we are doing In home hospice now. I made another video talking about what all has happened since my last post up until May 23rd.
I hope to make another video update soon. She had been really struggling with her breathing the end of May. Things went downhill again on the 30th when we went down on the prednisone and we almost lost her on the 31st.I had the hospice vet scheduled to come then but she could not get here until 6 that night. I found her on the floor around noon barely breathing and her gums were pale. I thought we had lost her and was trying my best to find someone to come sooner and end it but as I was crying over her she sat up and started walking around. It was crazy. By the time the vet got here she greeted her at the door and her gums were pink again so I could not do it. Things have been up and down with her since then. She is still eating and alert most of the time. Everyday is different with her though. At this point we just continue to take things one day a time. That is all we can do but it has been very hard and stressful because you never know what each day is going to bring. I think she has some cat in her though because she has so many lives. Hopefully she still has a few more left. i just don't want her to suffer. She is the strongest little dog I know and still has a will to live so we keep going for now.

Thankfully Lily was doing well on Mother's Day and we were able to celebrate with her. Emilia and I took my mom and the dogs to Barnes and Noble and we let my mom pick out what she wanted instead of just getting her a gift card like we usually do. She chose a journal and pens. We stopped at Starbucks afterwards and Emilia took this great photo of my mom and Lily. Indie had fun too.

Emilia got me a fanny pack from the Ellen shop that I had seen online I just love the message on it. She also got me a personalized water bottle but it didn't come with a straw so I am trying to find a different lid.

The best gift of all is having her for my daughter though.

My sister also ended up in the hospital with blood clots in her lungs she had pneumonia in March and was never able to get her breathing back to normal. She had gone to the get a CAT scan it was the third one since all this started and that is when it showed up. Thankfully they finally saw it and are treating it but she is still struggling with her breathing. They say it will take time to dissolve all the clots.

Things in our Etsy shop were still slow. We got this great photo from a buyer of her dog wearing one of my dog hats though. Isn't he adorable?

I also continued to participate in the Floral's and Praise For His Glory Challenge on Instagram. All were done on my Ipad Pro in Procreate. I had never heard of some of these flowers before especially the Flannel Flower on the top left.

I also made this piece from Liz Kohler Brown's Skillshare Class Modern Floral Illustrations On Your Ipad In Procreate

Finally we have all been loving this dish called Easy Egg Roll In A Bowl from The Real Food Blog.

It is a great quick and easy dish and Gluten free, Dairy Free and Vegan too.

That's all for now. Hope you are enjoying summery weather were you are. I will be back next month with more to share then.

Tuesday, May 21, 2019

April Recap

Happy Tuesday. It has felt more like March than May this month. It even snowed last night. We got a taste of summer last week though. It was even in the 80's a few days. That was a little too hot for me but at least it was better than cold/snow and the sun was shinning, I wish mother nature would figure it out and Spring comes back soon.
Hello April. I made this piece on my Ipad pro using procreate. I got the idea from something similar I saw on Pinterest.
April started off with lots of celebrations. Emilia's Birthday was on the 2nd. Still can't believe she turned 21. She wanted to get a Tarot Card reading so I went with her.  It was a lot of fun and the cards showed a lot of good things to come for her. We had family over later that night for Cake and presents and she got a bedroom makeover too. Overall I would say it was a pretty good birthday. She is such a beautiful person inside and out and I am so thankful to have her for my daughter.

We also celebrated Indies gotcha day on the 7th. It is hard to believe she has been here for a year. Didn't she look cute in the hat that I made her?
We were also blessed to be able to celebrate Lily's 13th birthday on the 10th too.This was a day I didn't think I would see after her cancer diagnosis 7 months ago. It just goes to show you that there is HOPE! Cancer does not have to be an automatic death sentence. I even made a video about her journey living with this kind of cancer. It starts from the beginning and goes until the beginning of April. You can view it here or on Youtube. 

Here are a few more photos of her too. I made her a special crown and we got her a bobo and pupachino. She loved them.

She was doing pretty good except for a cough but things took a turn for the worse the beginning of May. She is doing better now but it is still a roller coaster with her. Just when I think we have one problem under control something else happens.  I am hoping to do another video soon with an update since it is a lot to write here. I will post it next month or you can subscribe to my Youtube channel.

Sales in our Etsy shop were terrible. This seems to happen every April for some reason. I hate it when things get like this. Not only do I need the money but working also helps keep my mind busy.
We did get a custom order form a return buyer though. She wanted a fish shirt and matching party hat, I think they came out really cute. Hope you do too.

I finally finished all the sketches from the Half Backed Sketches Challenges by Stefan Kuntz.
for some reason he has stopped them. I am really sad about that because I loved doing them, Still hoping that he will bring them back in the future though.

I also did these pieces for the April Floral's and Praise for his Glory challenge. I was only able to get the first 3 weeks done before April was over. I will share week 4 in next months post.

Finally I did not make anything new to eat but I did find a new product I love. It is called scoop by Nekter.  It is amazing! If you have one where you are you have to try it. It is also 100% Vegan
That's all for now I hope the rest of your May will be a good one and I will be back with more next month to share then.

Saturday, April 20, 2019

March Recap

Happy Saturday,  Hope you are enjoying Spring were you are. The weather has been beautiful here the last few days. It is even going to be in the 80's today but that is all suppose to change tomorrow. We are suppose to get rain and possibly snow.  That is going to suck but hopefully it won't last long and we will be back to spring soon.
Hello March I made this piece on my Ipadpro and procreate. I was inspired by something similar I saw on Pinterest.
Lily: The month started out with me trying to find a new vet. What a nightmare that was, I started with VRCC another specialty hospital here in Denver but they would not even talk to me without a referral from another vet. I thought was ridiculous. They were not nice either. I called CSU to see if they had any trials available for her but they one they had sounded awful and I would never put her through that. They had nothing else to offer me. I called another vet who's father I had used a few years ago for Sophie but didn't really like and found out his daughter was practicing now. It took 2 days to get a call back from her but I really liked her though. She admitted that she was very busy and could not be readily available if needed which is no better then I have now so she was out. I called Dr Sherry on the recommendation of a friend on Facebook. We actually know her from Wash Park Vet which was the vet office we used years ago when we lived in Washington Park. I didn't think she was practicing anymore though.  She was very nice but is too far away to get her if needed. I tried  another mobile vet I had heard about she is the one with the mobile vet office. It said she was not taking new patients but I emailed anyways and got a response.  She wanted a fortune just to go over her records/consultation though so she was out. I called another vet who was recommended by another Facebook friend and they got back to me quickly but their first appointment was not for 10 days though. I asked if I could speak to the vet before I made the appointment, but they were not open to that. Said she was too busy and that concerned me but I went ahead and made the appointment for the 14th to meet them anyways since they were suppose to be holistic and provide palliative care too. I wasn't very optimist though because I saw they had a bad review saying it took days to get a response for their sick dog. I ended up contacting the person that did the review and she referred me to someone else. I called that vet and she was nice but was very far out too and would not be able to get her easily either. She also said that steroids could be use without waiting. I talked to another integrative vet that was recommended by someone on Facebook. She was very against a lot of things I was doing like feeding her fish and giving her regular drinking water which are things I had never heard of before. She started throwing a lot of information at me all at once and was very negative. Telling me we did not have a lot of time and that her dog died from bladder cancer because he could not pee. Nothing else was wrong with him though. Not what I needed to hear. I know this is not good. I don’t need to be reminded about it.  She continued to bombard me with another CBD product and information about it saying it had good tumor shrinking properties but all that information started to overwhelm me and I could not keep up. I was trying to write things down as she was saying them but had just woken up from a bad migraine when she called and I kept getting even more confused and frustrated. I told her that and asked her to slow down but she started getting  angry with me  and had a terrible attitude which made me even more upset and she said I was yelling at her. I was not really yelling at her though I was just frustrated and she was making me feel terrible. She ended up giving me the CBD guys number then ended the conversation. I was in tears after that. She sent an email a few minutes later with all the information which was all she needed to do in the first place and none of that would have happened. I was not going to have anything else to do with her after that but decided to thank her for the information and see if I could explain what happened better in an email. I didn’t think she was going to respond but she eventually did and said she was grateful for the email and was willing to continue working with me never heard from her again though.  I talked to the guy that makes the CBD  His company is call Colorado Sun and he was super nice and sent me a bottle for free which was really nice of him. There should be more people like that. After that I emailed and called more vets from the American Holistic Veterinary Medicine list that was shared with me on Facebook. I got a free phone consult with Harmony Vet Center on Wed, March 13. They were very nice and even requested her records to look at prior to the call which gave me some hope they actually really want to help. Another person I called on the list wanted to charge me to just to talk to them. I talked another vet on the list she was very nice but could only offer a few things and was not a full service vet. I talked to another vet that was referred to me from someone else on Facebook. She made me feel terrible too though. She thought I was doing too many things and they were fighting each other and I was suppose to take her off the Peroxicam. I didn't  want to do that though because I think it is still helping. She was going to charge me to talk to her too but when she heard I was not on board with taking things out she ended the conversation and didn’t charge me which was a good thing because I didn’t feel right paying for her advice in the first place. I was in tears again after taking to her. At that point I decided just to wait to talk to the Vet from Harmony's see the vet from Journeys. 

We ended up getting a big snow storm that day and the new vet called to tell me they would not make it because the roads were still closed where they were. They waited to call me at the appointment time though which sucked. Said they tried to text but the number I gave them is my land line, I don’t understand why they didn’t just call me when they didn’t hear back. They were suppose to come the next day at 4:30 but  they canceled again saying they still could not get out of their driveway and had no idea when a plow would come so could we move the appointment to Sunday. I said okay.

 Third time was the charm. Candy finally showed up and spent 2 hours with us. She seemed very nice, compassionate, knowledgeable and agreed that she has more life to live.  She went over everything and was in agreement with me about the Peroxicam vs the steroids and to leave her on it. We went over a lot of things and she added in some more supplements. She suggested I make my own food using fresh vegetables and bone broth then adding in lightly cooked meat because she felt it was better than the freeze dried food I was feeding her from Dr. Harveys. . I told her I would try it. She also discovered she had a slight heart murmur and that could be the cause of the cough. She put her on something for that but she had to ship it to me because she didn’t have it on her. She said to stop the Deamarin and she will put her on a different milk thistle that is easier to absorb without fillers. She also said don’t do the honey which I was questioning too. The visit and supplements ended up being expensive. 280.00 later. i was told the visit was only going to be 80.00 so was a bit confused and asked for an itemized bill which she said she would send later. She was also supposed to email me everything we talked about because it was way too much for me to remember which she understood. I had some hope again but was still being cautiously optimistic because I have had my hopes dashed before.

I started the supplements she gave me while she was here later that night and she did okay with them. I got the plan a few days later and it was very overwhelming. She wanted me to do a lot of things all at once. I tried to contact her with questions but was only getting responses from her office girl. I decided to just add things slowly instead of all at once because I didn't want to overload her and not know what was working and what wasn't. I was most hesitant to do the Artemesinin and the Apocaps because I didn't know enough about them. I started researching on my own and decided to start with the Apocaps on the 28th. I thought she was doing okay with them but about 5 days later she started hesitating to take her treats which was really odd then she was not wanting to eat her food. I had changed her to all homemade. I tried the turkey backs and legs in the crock pot but that was a real pain so switched back to ground turkey. I was grinding the fresh vegetables in the food processor and she seemed to be eating them okay but when she started to not want to eat I went back to her old food and took her off the Apo caps and she started eating again. I emailed the holistic vet to tell her what was going on but it took 3 days for a response and she didn't really seem concerned and then she disappeared again. I don't understand this especially since I thought I made it very clear telling her that I needed someone with good communication and follow up and she still didn't answer all my questions. I tried emailing again but still no response. I decided to to just play around with the supplements and try to figure out what is going to work best for her on my own. It is physically and emotionally exhausting not knowing if I am doing the right things for her though. A lot more has happened since I wrote this but I will fill you in on that next month. 

My birthday was on the 25th and it was a big one.  It turned out to be a pretty good day. We took the dogs to the book store. (Barnes and Nobel) something I have been wanting to do for while now. Indie did great in there. Lily was a little whiny in her stroller though. I think she wanted out but I didn't want to risk her peeing in there. People in there were very dog friendly. Emilia had me pick out a book for a gift and then we got ourselves and the pups a drink at Starbucks. Rich got stuck at home waiting for the mailman to come get the packages but he surprised me with more sunflowers when he came home and is going to help me pay off the Ipad I bought at Christmas. Emilia also surprised me with Winnie The Pooh Candyland. I had bought that game for her when she was little but gave it away for some reason and have always regretted it so that was a big surprise. She also got me some paints too but they were just shipped yesterday. We ended the evening watching American Idol and eating some yummy vegan/gluten free tarts from Make Believe Bakery. This was a milestone birthday. I have decided that instead of looking at it in a negative way I am going to be grateful for getting 50 years of life so far and hoping that this next decade will be a good one even though I know there will be challenges ahead. I think this quote Emilia found sums it up perfectly "turning 50 doesn't mean you're approaching the end it means you're nearing the top rejoice and be grateful! 

Things in our Etsy shop were still going okay. I made a new fabric and ribbon banner to go with out pink lemonade tutu outfit that I have wanted to make for awhile. I love how it came out. Hope you do too.  

My Art: I started a new challenge called Florals And Praise For His Glory on Instragram hosted by @tiny_sparrow_design and @artuplifted. Each week you letter a bible verse and floral chosen by them. I am really enjoy it. 

I also did a few more pieces for Stefan Kuntz half baked sketches challenge. 
Finally I did this piece to welcome in Spring. The brushes and tutorial are from Tina at Sketchwerx. She is an amazing artist and has a lot of great brushes and tutorials on her website so be sure to check it out. 
Finally Rich decided to go Keto and I found this great recipe for Garlic Parmesan Chicken Tenders
They are really good we all love them.

That.s all for now. I will be back next month with more to share then. 

Wednesday, March 20, 2019

February Recap

Happy Wednesday and 1st Day of Spring. I hope the sun is shining were you are. As I began to write this blog post last week we were experiencing a bomb cyclone. That was a first for me. I have seen a lot of blizzards though.  Our last big one was on March 17th 16 years ago. Thankfully we made it through this one without any problems and it has melted quickly. Others in the state were not so lucky. Hopefully we have had enough moisture for awhile now.
Hello February. I learned how to draw and paint the flamingos in Irina Skillshare Class. I did mine on my Ipad Pro using procreate though.
Feb did not start out very well. Monday morning Feb 18th I heard Lily coughing before Rich left for work. I went down to check on her and found her shaking, short of breath and her gums were pale. Scared the crap out of me. I called Rich but he would not come back so I gave her some Gabapentin and texted the vet. It was only around 6:30 am though. The vet didn’t get right back to me and she was not getting much better so Emilia and I took her to Alameda East ER. They took her right back when we got there but did not keep her long and said she was stable. We had to wait awhile after that to see the vet. She was doing better when the vet finally walked in but was very nervous to be there which I understood after all she had been through there. It was the last place I wanted to be too.  After telling the vet the situation and taking a look she said she thought the tumor was pressing on her trachea now and that was what was causing the cough. She had nothing to compare it to though. I asked her about trying an antibiotic and she agreed. She was pretty much doom and gloom and had her dead in a few days so that did not make me feel any better about things. We got the Doxcycyline and paid $140.00 and left there. My vet finally texted back while we were there and asked if we needed anything. I got her to come look at her later that afternoon because she was the only one that would know if it really changed. When she got here Lily was still coughing but she was able to take a look. She said it looked gray which might mean infection, so it was good we got the antibiotic. She said she probably would have put her on a different one but it was okay to start with this one and we could add another one in if this one did not work. She also said I could try a natural cough med I heard about in a Facebook group but would need to look at the ingredients first. I sent her the link after she left but did not hear back. I texted her about it again the next morning and she said it was okay to try so I ordered it. I got it later that night but did not give it to her until the next day. Wednesday. It seemed to make her agitated and restless and didn’t really help. I increased the CBD/THC that night and it seemed to help. She slept well and did not cough much until after noon the next day it started again shortly after that. I texted the vet to ask about trying the other antibiotic but did not hear back. Thursday night was bad she woke coughing every couple of hours. She coughed so hard she fell over that morning. Finally got a text back from the vet Friday morning and said she would call it in to Safeway. I called a few hours later and was told they did not have it and could not get it until Monday she asked if there was another pharmacy she could call it into I told her Clearsprings which is where I get her Peroxicam. I didn’t hear anything back until the next morning again. She said they were supposed to call me but never heard from them. I called the next morning Saturday and they said they didn’t have anything from her. I texted her again but no response. I tried calling a little while later and no answer. Finally heard from her saying she got it done. I still don’t know who’s fault this one was but I called them and they said they could have it ready by 3 so Emilia and Rich went to get it. I noticed that there was not a lot in the bottle and didn’t know how it was going to last that long but decided to worry about that later.  I was going to start it Saturday night but was confused by the directions on how much to give her so texted the vet again. She texted back awhile later and told me what the right dose was, so I waited to start it until Sunday Morning. I gave it until Wednesday and emailed the vet again because I was not sure how well it was working and the cough was keeping us both from sleeping at night. I asked if we had any other options. 24 hours went by before she responded and she said we could try steroids but that we had to take her off of the Peroxicam for 4-5 days before we could start it and her cough could get worse during that time. I did not like the sound of that. I was worried that being off the Peroxicam for that long would just make things worse and asked if there was something else we could give her during that time but she said no which was really upsetting. I could not believe that she would leave her with nothing during that time and take the chance things/the cough could get worse. Thursday morning, I decided to start looking for other vets again. I heard back from one that told me we did not have to wait that long to start the steroids if we were willing to take the chance it could cause more problems with her liver and kidneys. My vet never told me why we would have to wait so long. This vet also said that she was worried it could be her heart or lungs filling up with fluid while she was sleeping which freaked me out more. I don’t remember anyone saying anything about her heart or lungs as a cause for the cough before. This vet was very nice though and took the time to listen to my story and answer all my questions, but I decided that it was not worth her coming to see her for $250.00 when she told me she had limited working hours. That is no better than I have now. I wrote emails and left messages for 3 other vets but never heard back from any of them. Almost another 24 hours went by before I heard back from my vet after my last email again. This time she offered me a cough suppressant from Chewy’s online that has the same ingredients as Children’s Mucinex which I have given her before. I didn’t understand how that was going to be of help especially since I would have to order it??  She then offered for us to try the narcotic cough syrup I had asked for the week before in a text and never got an answer for but said I would need a written prescription for it. She didn’t say how long that would take to get though and now it was Friday.  I had a feeling that I was going to have to wait all weekend to hear from her again and had no idea how long it was going to take to get the prescription and fill it. I hoped it did not have to be compounded because I had nothing but problems with the compound pharmacy lately. They did not give me enough amoxicillin/ I called to tell them about it Friday because they were not answering their phones on Thursday and they said they would get me some more and have it delivered that afternoon but no on showed up so I called to see what was going and they told me it would take days to get it ready when they promised me they would get it done that day. I asked to speak to a manager and told her what happened, and she agreed to bring to me after she got off work which was really nice but I don’t really want to deal with them again right now if I don’t have to. I finally heard back from my vet late Saturday morning and said she would drop off the prescription She also recommended trying an acupuncturist and gave me a number to call but I doubt Lily would sit still for that. She said she would ask around for someone that is more knowable with Chinese Herbs. She texted me around 4:30 to say she was coming by to drop it off and I told her that was fine I was home. About 15 mins later I got another text that she put it in the mailbox and ran. I don’t understand why she didn’t ring the doorbell. I needed to ask her if it was okay to give her before bed with the cbd/thc. I texted and asked. It took hours for a response and she said it was okay and that was it. That did not sound right to me though. I think she just said yes to get rid of me. I was not happy with how she handled things at all and I am still not happy with her response time. She has not checked on her since either which is really upsetting. I need someone that is more dependable and will continue to follow up on her. I don't understand why that is so hard to find. It feels like what I go through with my own health. Why does this keep happening? I ended up changing her Peroxicam to the evening Thursday night and I think it may be helping some. I also upped her CBD/THC and started a new bottle of the daytime CBD too I am thinking the other one was expired. She started sleeping better too. I started looking for new vets soon after that. As you have read this has been a nightmare. There is a lot more to tell but I have already written a novel so I will tell you more about that in my March recap. I just don't understand why this has to be so hard. 

More things continued to go wrong after that though. My printer broke, My Silhouette was not working right. I got an extended warranty but they wouldn't honor it because it was not a year old so I had to deal with Silhouette direct and that was a nightmare because of all the hoops they made me go through to get help. Thankfully I was just putting the blade in wrong and didn't have to get another one after all
After that my vacuum broke. Then I had a psycho buyer who was threatening me because she wanted her money back for express shipping when a package arrived a day late 3 months ago. I told her before she purchased it shipping was not guaranteed and was not refundable to which she agreed and purchased anyways. I was about to lose my mind thankfully things started to turn around a bit. 

Things in our Etsy shop slowed down a little. We still kept busy, I didn't really make anything new though. I got this great photo from a return buyer of her dog wearing our hat and bowtie set though. Didn't they look great on him? 

I made the digital piece on the left in procreate with my Ipad pro using floral brushes from ipadlettering in honor of Valentines day. On the right are the surprise gifts I received from Emilia and Rich even though I told them I didn't want anything. They were still appreciated though.

I continued to participate in Stefan Kuntz weekly challenges that I started last month. These are the 4 pieces I made for February. 

I also  learned how to make this piece from a tutorial I saw from Jamie Kim @inksnthings on Instragram. I did mine digitally on my Ipad pro in Procreate using the watercolor canvas from @simplyallison and brushes from @tinycactusdesigns. 

Finally I made these Paleo apple bars awhile ago but never got around to sharing them. They are really yummy. You can get the recipe here.
That's all for now. I will be back next month with more to share and hopefully things will have gotten better by then.

Sunday, February 17, 2019

January Recap

Happy Sunday. I hope the weather is warmer where you are. After a few days in the 50's we are back to snow and cold.  Winter is definitely here and I am already over it. Spring can't get here soon enough. I hope your New Year started off well. We woke up to snow on the ground but other than that It was pretty uneventful here which is good.
I was inspired to make this piece from a few different things I saw on Pinterest. I did mine digitally on my Ipad Pro using my new watercolor skills that I learned in the Watercolor Wonders Course.

Things with Lily continued to be stable and she was doing well. We had a recheck a few weeks ago and the vet said the mass looked the same which was great news. We decided to continue to do the same regimen since it seemed to be working. Last week she started coughing and retching though which has me worried especially because it has been happening the most after she has been sleeping.  I just hope that does not mean the tumor got bigger. She is acting pretty normal other than that though. I think it bothers me more than her. I just don't want her to suffer. My biggest fear is that the tumor will get so big it will block her airway. I pray that will not happen. All we can really do is continue to take things one day at a time though.  In the meantime I will try and continue to focus on the good.  I think this piece I made with inspiration from Pinterest will help remind me of that too.

Things in our Etsy shop continued to keep us busy which was great. I had a custom order to make matching party decor to go with our bird tutu set. Below is a collage with everything we made for her.
We also got this great photo from a buyer of her daughter wearing our winter wonderland outfit. She also bought the matching party decor. Isn't she a cutie? 
One of my favorite Letting Artists Stefan Kunz started a new weekly challenge sharing his sketches and allowing us to put our spin on them. They have really inspired me to create more especially because I have a really hard time coming up with layouts on my own.  I really admire his work so this has been great for me. These are my first three pieces and I really enjoyed making them. I look forward to continuing to do more in the future.

Finally I made these Paleo Cinnamon buns at Christmas time and forgot to share them here. I loved them and would highly recommend them.
That's all for now I hope the rest of your February is a good one and I will be back with more to share next month.